Why do I Refuse to do What's Most Important? | Steve Beckow

Why Do I Refuse to Do What’s Most Important?

September 26, 2019
by Steve Beckow



I was working in my apartment when bliss suddenly arose. No warning. No reason I was aware of.

It was a circumstance where, if I did not recognize it and allow it, it’d enter my experience for a second and then vanish. As if it just poked its head in.

But I did recognize it and I allowed it and it expanded to fill my being.

I have one or two colleagues who are also experiencing bliss.

What I noticed was that two things were exerting countervailing pulls on me.

One was bliss, which was pulling me in one direction. And the other was … what to call it? Personality? Ego? A desire for profile, respect, validation, admiration? Pulling me in another direction.

I saw that I could have one or the other but not both … and I chose bliss.

I didn’t need to sit down and get out my calculator. I didn’t need to ask my friends what they thought. Bingo. The decision was made.

If I allow the ego to arise, it arises in the same space otherwise available to bliss. It’s like a volcano that fills the blue skies with smoke.

I allow the ego to arise through making choices. If I choose not to hook up with it but be the observer instead as Michael so often asks of us, then my hope is the ego will not blossom forth in me. It’ll arise and pass away.

Again, if I stop being lazy and focus on drawing up love and bliss from my heart, I’ll start to use this machine I’m in (for a time) to its best effect.

What’s more important, at this time, than my connection with love?

I used to ask myself: Why is it so hard to do the right thing?

Now I’m asking myself: Why do I refuse to do what’s most important?

Source: Golden Age of Gaia