More Power than is Manageable | Steve Beckow

By Steve Beckow, April 4, 2022

(Golden Age of Gaia)

More Power Than is Manageable – Part 1/2

From 2013.

I’m coming across nuggets while compiling Ascension and the Golden Age.

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Here’s one which relates an experience of a huge power surge that lasted a half hour, but energized my remaining negative vasanas and magnified them so much that I could see, beyond the shadow of a doubt, where they all led.

I’ve actually had the experience of a power surge three times. On another occasion than this one, the face of my ego came through, which my wife said scared her to death. I saw it from inside. The ego was red, fearsome, and horned. It scared the life out of me as well. It came through like a volcanic eruption and then disappeared.

“Sometimes a Rude Shock Can be a Good thing,” at https://goldenageofgaia.com/2013/02/sometimes-a-rude-shock-can-be-a-good-thing/

It isn’t often that experiences happen right in the midst of things. Usually we go to a meditation retreat or a growth workshop and something happens in the course of it.

But yesterday I had an experience in the middle of the day. Nothing was happening prior and nothing happened after. It lasted for a half hour and then it was gone.

However it was life-altering and a glimpse into another realm.

Describing it will be difficult but here goes. For half an hour, I felt myself with more power coming through me and passing outwards than I could possibly imagine. I became for a time a person who … well, may as well have sprung into the physique of the Hulk, I had so much energy, so much power, so much drive passing through me.

Here I was, a human dynamo and the minute I allowed this energy to flow a millimeter in any direction, it passed through the filter of my human personality and I received a rude shock.

If someone poured a cup of mud into a bowl of punch, would I drink the punch? If someone dropped a piece of soap into my Coke, would I drink the Coke?

By the same token, the pure power passing through the filter of my personality did not emerge pure. It emerged tainted by my remaining vasanas, tainted by feelings that were ten times more powerful than when I felt them ordinarily.

The worst sides of me, which until now were completely hidden from me, were tremendously exaggerated, laid plain to sight, incapable of being misinterpreted. There is nothing hid that shall not be known, Jesus said. I now see one of the mechanisms whereby this self-revelation is done.

I didn’t like what I saw. I considered myself somewhat, maybe a tad further down the road than that, but what I saw emerging from that filter was below my standards of good behavior. At the same time it was so magnified and exaggerated that I was enabled to see it and denied any wiggle room. I did look at it and then asked the powers that be to close the experience off.

I reached the conclusion very quickly that I’m not capable at this moment of making good use of that much power. If I had that much right now and tried to interact with it, I’d probably end up perpetrating. I couldn’t remain balanced. I wouldn’t be fast enough to stop myself from misusing it.

I’d cause more mischief than good at this point in my development. If the situation were otherwise, I’d say so.

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I thank the powers that be that took that experience away from me. I thank them as well for granting it to me for a brief period of time. It was enough to show me what real power was and how it can be abused.

The Sorcerer’s Apprentice got to wear the hat and watch the brooms go wild. One has to be able to handle that much juice and I’ve quite happily seen that, just like the Sorcerer’s Apprentice, I’m not able.

It cured me of wanting full interdimensional restoration at this moment. I wouldn’t yet know how to make good use of it.

It cured me of wanting to be fully opened, on a sudden path, rather than a gradual one.

It was like Bruce Almighty being God for a day, while God took a vacation. Thank you. I got it. Now here’s your hat back.

I feel absolutely reconciled to the gradual. Fully opened to the need to go no faster than the advisable pace. Fully understanding what can result otherwise.

I was glad that I didn’t have to walk such an advanced path. I had no further complaints and got back to work without grousing.

There’s an extreme point beyond which it isn’t prudent for me to go just yet. On balance and in retrospect, and no matter how much I’m criticized for it, I’m happy to leave the pace to you, Lord.



By Steve Beckow, April 5, 2022

(Golden Age of Gaia)

More Power Than is Manageable – Part 2/2

From 2013

We continue with our look at the experience of a power surge and what that revealed to me about unprocessed vasanas or core issues.

“The Day After: Reflections on a Rude Shock,” February 26, 2013, at https://goldenageofgaia.com/2013/02/26/the-day-after-reflections-on-a-rude-shock/

I wanted to say more about the unusual experience I had on Saturday, which has proven so revealing. (1) During that experience, I felt more power surge through me than I’ve ever felt in my life and could ever contemplate feeling. It took my experience of life to dimensions that I could not have imagined.

But it also had me see what happens when a tremendous amount of energy arises from within and then is transmitted out through the medium of the physical body, the emotional make-up, and the mindset, with its residual issues in life.

As I said then, the remaining vasanas skewed and biased the energy pouring through. Meanwhile, the energy itself exaggerated the vasanas so that what was a minor matter before was now a very major matter. My minor irritability, impatience, and sexual desires were all monstrously big now.

And one of the things I saw right away was how an enlightened person, who was only halfway up the mountain, could perpetrate so badly and fall from grace. Their vasanas are not burnt away.

The vasanas don’t release their grip until a stage of enlightenment called sahaja samadhi, which Archangel Michael has told me that almost no one on the planet has yet achieved. (I named one person I thought had achieved it and he said he has not yet done so. And this is the level of enlightenment that all of us will achieve upon Ascension!)

The seeds of our vasanas persist and sprout anew in the face of the enormous amounts of energy available to partially-enlightened masters. So I now understood the process of what some enlightened beings may excuse as being “crazy wisdom,” but which can sometimes boil down to simple bad conduct.

A second feature of the experience is that, even though I asked that the experience be shut down, it still stands as a concrete demonstration of the statement that we hear from so many sources that we are powerful beings. OK, I got it. We are indeed powerful beings.

I feel more confident knowing the truth of that statement. I’ve had a first-hand experience of it and first-hand experiences dissolve doubts.

We should only hope that we’re not asked to BE powerful beings before we’re ready to shoulder that responsibility.

A third thing I now see is how very important it is that we complete our vasanas if we’re to come into our power in the course of building Nova Earth. We cannot afford to find ourselves perpetrating because we haven’t handled the niggling matters which in the face of increased power become big.

Some people are tapping. Others are experiencing their vasanas through to completion. Some people are using their reasoning powers on them. Whatever works.

Until now I’ve said that getting rid of our vasanas will make for a smoother Ascension. But now I say: some people may not want to be fully in their power until they have their vasanas under control. The result may not be at all pleasant.

For the actually pure in heart, being a conduit for that much power may not prove as difficult a proceeding. But for those for whom impurities remain, it could be.

That’s another reason to complete our old issues, get rid of our old baggage, and release everything not destined to come along with us into the Fifth Dimension.

On the other side of the ledger, I notice that I’m breathing in a satisfied way, not like I can explain why or say more than that. It’s like there’s a big internal “Yes!” happening.

And I don’t need to go barrelling ahead any more. I know a little about how the story ends now and that makes the waiting more bearable. All of these are quite pleasant spin-offs of this disorienting and reorienting event.

Finally, I feel moved to comment on the frequency of these experiences. There was a time when I was young that I was going from one spiritual experience to another. Then there was a time when one happened perhaps every 5-10 years. Then there was a time when nothing happened for decades and I thought this aspect of my life was over.

But you can see that several, fairly-revealing incidents have happened since 21/12/12. I feel moved to say that this has been a fairly fruitful period, internally speaking. The outside world is still not rolling along in the manner I expected, but the inner world is buzzing.

Footnotes

(1) “Sometimes a Rude Shock Can be a Good thing,” at https://goldenageofgaia.com/2013/02/sometimes-a-rude-shock-can-be-a-good-thing/