By Steve Beckow, December 17, 2020
(Golden Age of Gaia)
If one goes on a news fast at this moment, interestingly, it adds to the isolation.
I do get that for a lot of people, increasing the isolation can be very difficult. Folks in marriages that aren’t working, folks unemployed, folks who can’t visit their hospitalized loved ones.
I feel a responsibility to do the inner work and report it when I realize that, because I’m retired and assisted by you, I have the time to go inward where so many people do not.
What does it mean to go inward?
In setting pen to paper, I immediately encounter difficulty in describing the “I” that goes inward. And what is it doing inwardly?
I realize for instance that I’ve cleared a few vasanas away and the “I” I’m experiencing may not feel the same as another’s who perhaps hasn’t cleansed their vasanas.
Whether due to the rising energies or inner work, I notice that, when I laugh, I access a deeper place than I usually have in the past. I keep feeling surprised to hear and feel my deeply-resonant laughter these days.
Therefore the “I” which observes each scene is a little more visible to me than he might have been a few years ago. I notice that it has no other qualities that I’m aware of than existence. It’s always there. That’s the only thing I can say about it.
When I fall quiet, I lose my train of thought. I lose my focus of attention. I lose my interest in the outside world. But I never lose that point of awareness that “I” am.
Notice how fortunate an interest in this subject is because the purpose of life is to know who I am.
And what does it mean to “go inward”?
Going inward for me involves letting go of all thoughts and feelings, breathing into and observing what arises in the quiet space. I feel my feelings. I enjoy the bliss. I feel the pain. I allow realizations to surface.
I’m in that space now. It’s a space available to love and peace and bliss. And so I can hunt for these qualities there and, when I find one, immerse myself in it.
I am again in higher-dimensional love, the all-satisfying. All is now good. All is settled. Where outside all is chaos, inside, all is peaceful.