We Go too Fast to See the Operations of the Mind | Steve Beckow

By Steve Beckow, February 26, 2023

(Golden Age of Gaia)

With the world appearing headed for (a mock) world-warlike confrontation, I find myself in a world apart, in the midst of an insight, scribbling away to catch my thoughts.

I watched the insight or realization happen. In fact I’m still in it.

A little background. Not too much!

I’ve taken up a hobby of painting unusual bottles with a kind of glitter paint that you buy in a dollar store? Allows me to relax my brain.

I began to paint the sides of a bottle I had with gold glitter paint. There’s more glue than glitter in the paint and so I had to put on one coat after another to get the look of solid, glittering gold.

As I did so, the insights began rolling off me.

Painting one coat after another seemed to me like cultivating a virtue or divine quality – say, of kindness. It’s one act after another after another, if one is a lightworker and thus modelling behavior. (1)

This is an unusual metaphor for me. Usually I think of taking one layer after another off, as in unburdening myself of issues.

After a while the paint of kindness begins to stick and becomes layered on a person. Soon, I imagined, kindness would become automatic with no more need for intervention.

Remember that this is the troll under the bridge learning kindness. I’m reparenting myself. You probably know this but I’m learning it late in life.

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This thought of kindness sticking through repetition hit me as a realization and I saw that I had the ability to stop the camera and watch the realization unfold, almost frame by frame.

I saw that my emotions rose, carrying or lifting me up to a level where I could now see what I could not before. (2)

When I got the further idea to paint the top or neck of the bottle with dark-blue glitter instead of gold, my excitement and enthusiasm skyrocketed. That skyrocketing emotion allowed me to see from a still higher level.

The elevation of my mood or feelings was opening up my mental capacities. They set the tone for my thoughts on what to do, which designed the practical steps. These were submitted to my feelings again and either passed muster or not.

Some actions are so unquestionably acceptable to us that they become automatic; an example would be putting food in our mouths.

But if we pulled those actions apart or, better still, stopped the camera, we’d see ourselves presiding – OMG, this is the Oversoul that I experienced at a 2011 Vipassana retreat – (3) over action that required our intervention. Automatic actions required no intervention. (4)

I see myself presiding over action so clearly. And upon seeing it, my feeling of accountability, responsibility for myself goes way up. I can hardly think of moving for the increased sense of responsibility.

We’re just going too fast to see the operations of the mind. But it operates, regardless of whether we’re aware of what it’s doing or not.

My mind operates on automatic until it hits a quandary and then it seeks the participation of the observer, the Oversoul. The observer behaves like a superintendent or manager.

Am I, the observer, not watching the monarch rule over their domain of functional competence and authority? As long as things are flowing, and they remain untriggered, the monarch is at rest. When a problem arises or they become triggered, the observer intervenes and takes action.

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Wow. The experience has passed but I watched myself slow down and the workings of the mind become discernible. I much enjoyed life lived at that speed.

Footnotes

(1) It also probably communicates better than teaching could. It isn’t preaching about it, but modelling it that’s probably more effective.

I’d expect this to be an example of what Sri Ramana would call a “good” vasana, one that would last through Ascension.

“Vasanas which do not obstruct Self-Realization remain [after Self-Realization]. In Yoga Vasistha two classes of vasanas are distinguished: those of enjoyment and those of bondage. The former remain even after Mukti [Ascension] is attained, but the latter are destroyed by it. Attachment is the cause of binding vasanas, but enjoyment without attachment does not bind and continues even in Sahaja. (Ramana Maharshi in S.S. Cohen, Guru Ramana. Memories and Notes. 6th edition. Tiruvannamalai: Sri Ramanasramam, 1993, 89.)

(2) Remember that, during my 1987 vision of the purpose of life, it was bliss that lifted me up so high that I could intuitively know each participant in the vision and what it all meant. See “The Purpose of Life is Enlightenment – Ch. 13 – Epilogue,” August 13, 2011, at https://goldenageofgaia.com/2011/08/13/the-purpose-of-life-is-enlightenment-ch-13-epilogue/

(3) At this moment in my writing, I realized that my Oversoul was at that moment speaking.

At a meditation retreat, March 2011, I had an experience of my Oversoul. The experience was truncated in that it lacked bliss. Nevertheless, I experienced myself as moving without moving, doing without doing, speaking without speaking. I asked Michael about it:

Steve Beckow: I had an experience at a meditation workshop in which I felt regal. It was a partial experience. Can you tell me what that part of me was that I accessed.

Archangel Michael: … Your Highest Self, your Oversoul is very regal.

S: So that was an experience of the Oversoul.

AAM: Yes. (Archangel Michael in a personal reading with Steve Beckow through Linda Dillon, Sept. 13, 2011.)

The Arcturians have said that “Seventh [Dimension] is your Oversoul.” (Arcturians in a personal reading with Steve Beckow through Suzanne Lie, March 17, 2013.)

(4) This seems to me to be a good description of how the mind works in general.