This “Me” Does Not Exist But “I” Do | Steve Beckow

Who are you? Really

By Steve Beckow, June 19, 2022

(Golden Age of Gaia)

I’ve just had the clearest example of someone on the other side sending me an urgent bulletin. Both the bulletin and the sending are interesting.

I was wrestling with what caused inner turmoil and turned my attention to the “personality.”

And then came a moment of clear, heightened seeing when I said to myself: I don’t know how to describe what the personality is….

And I distinctly heard the words form in my mind, with a tinge of emphasis: “Because it doesn’t exist.”

That was not me. …. Hmmm…..

I followed that line of commentary however: I said to myself, perhaps I don’t exist and I got my usual signal of agreement from Michael when I’ve said something accurate. I took that as confirmation.

I don’t know which to discuss – the process or the message.

This is the clearest example I’ve had of a communication which I well know did not come from me. I put a bookmark here.

Now the message: I don’t exist.

I’m just letting that sink in.

The “I” of personality does not exist. What does exist? Thoughts, feelings, and actions. Not a “person” as we understand the term.

I suspect that everything about these thoughts, feelings, and actions varies from dimension to dimension.

On this dimension, “I” am not to be found – or on any dimension above it. “I” lie beyond all dimensions, physical and transcendental. (1)

The “I” that actually and penultimately exists (2) is not an “I” that I can even know. I have to be silent before it. I’ll disappear before that “I” is “known.”

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I work on the illusion day and night, convincing myself that I exist by amassing possessions, socializing, keeping records. This is me. This is who I am.

It’d be like wanting people to believe – really believe – that my Hallowe’en costume is actually me. It’s not.

It makes all numbers I have to make me look good look foolish. I do not exist.

Never mind having no clothes. The emperor does not exist.

Something does exist, however, and I am that. It has no qualities. I know it only as the ever-present observer.

I knew it in the Ocean of Love as a point of light and awareness. (3) And I knew it at Xenia in the seat of the soul as a luminous Light. (4)

Like the Father, this observer allows me total free will and sees everything. It’s said of the Father that it experiences life through me. I am a projection of that same Father into this dimension. As are you. This Light, this Christ, this Atman is the projection I am. (5)

So, after all is said and done, this “me,” this object built of thoughts that I make of myself and adorn with possessions, does not exist. But “I” do.

Footnotes

(1) I now conceive of there being three levels to reality: Physical, Trascendental, and Absolute.

(2) It too disaappears in the One.

(3) See “Love is the Way, the Truth, and the Life,” May 6, 2014, at https://goldenageofgaia.com/2014/05/06/love-is-the-way-the-truth-and-the-life/; 
“Immersed in an Ocean of Love – Part 1/2” at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2015/05/17/immersed-ocean-love-part-12/; and “Immersed in an Ocean of Love – Part 2/2,” May 17, 2015, at https://goldenageofgaia.com/2015/05/17/immersed-ocean-love-part-22/.

(4) Steve: The experience at Xenia, Mother, was that truncated?

Divine Mother: Slightly, yes.

Steve: I had the thought [it was]. … The Light I saw should have been brighter than a thousand suns. The fact that it wasn’t suggests to me that the experience was truncated. …

DM: It was not is brilliant as possible, let us put it that way.

Steve: Alright… And again, the reason is to keep me in sync with my readers?

DM: To keep you in sync with your readers.

But let me be very clear…. If you had seen the light as it actually is – yes, a million, billion suns – you would have simply departed. …

We don’t mean die but you would have departed the life that you have designed – yes, with us – for yourself, for the service you are providing – you would have departed and simply said, ‘I do not need to do this. I will just simply sit in the bliss of love and good luck, everybody!’” (Divine Mother in a personal reading with Steve Beckow through Linda Dillon, Oct. 26, 2018.)

Archangel Michael: We have unplugged you and, yes, it took some time and shall we say, a few shocks and jolts [watching Frazzeldrip]. But what you have done, is you have journeyed to the depths of your soul, to the depths of your core. (“Archangel Michael Explains What Happened at Xenia,” September 22, 2018, at http://goldenageofgaia.com/2018/09/22/archangel-michael-explains-what-happened-at-xenia/.)

(5) The door into the higher dimensions for this everyday consciousness is the door of the heart, or hridayam, to be found in the center, the balance point, the present moment.