Over the Chasm of Hope and Fear | Catherine Viel

By Catherine Viel, September 24, 2021

(Golden Age of Gaia)

September 23, 2021

It’s like so many other things in life
to which you must say no or yes…
And sometimes you sense how faithfully your life
is delivered, even though you can’t read the address.
~Thomas R. Smith, Trust

What a weird tightrope we are all walking these days.

Unless it’s just me, but I suspect not.



For instance, I’ve spent the last five-plus years trying to find a cure for my hip pain.

It’s better than it was but not as good as I want it to be.

You see? There I am, judging and evaluating and finding myself lacking.

A very human thing to do. But not something we are “supposed” to do when we are in unity consciousness and all is exactly as it should be no matter how we perceive it.

I am thoroughly ensnared by physical reality simply because it’s so painful to be here. When I blithely wandered as I wished and never felt a twinge, I knew a freedom I can’t even remember now, where my mental processes weren’t constantly noticing pain and trying to avoid it.

I have moments of balance where the outside stuff doesn’t really matter. Even when persistent pain doesn’t really matter (much).

But in my perception, those balanced moments take up a tiny percentage of my overall experience of living in time.

Most of the time…I’m not a very happy camper.

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I have evolved into a strange blend of the practical and the whimsical.

The practical part is always scanning my horizons for ways to cure the pain. Permanently, thank you, not a stopgap. And not hip replacement surgery for what Western medicine labels arthritis, and not cortisone shots, and…I’m extremely picky about what I will, and won’t, do for a cure.

The whimsical part encourages me to simply go with the flow, keep doing Reiki, and continue with Emotion Code work to release trapped emotions contributing to the stuck pain.

Once in awhile the practical part pokes me into some sort of action. A friend recently experienced encouraging results for their intransigent pain using something I’d never come across: PEMF (Pulsed Electromagnetic Field) therapy. (1)



Oh my gosh! Electromagnetic fields that are beneficial! Who knew?

The most cursory research reveals that modern devices have been around for something like one hundred years. The machines have been used by chiropractors and other practitioners for decades. There are versions for home use, as well.

Well heck. Why haven’t I heard about this before? And would it do me any good? Is there anybody local who offers it? The practical side kicks in full bore and my head starts buzzing.

Nothing new there, I’ve been reacting to other physical intervention possibilities in a similar fashion for over five years. Aqua therapy! Myofascial release! And let’s not forget old standbys like Rolfing and acupuncture.

What was new, this time, was that I literally stopped and asked my body: Would this help me, help us?

And received a resounding “YES!”

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That doesn’t stop the perpetual question, though. What if it doesn’t work?



I’ve found that attempting to approach life from a well-grounded spiritual basis has its disadvantages. Spiritual awareness informs me I should not care whether or not it works. The pain is a lesson, delve deep into whatever I’m supposed to learn from it, release attachment to being cured.

Over the chasm of hope and fear I walk the tightrope, holding onto a pole of light so delicately balanced that one breath can put it awry.

I loosen my grip, contrary to my instinctive reaction to hold on tighter. Cradled in my hands, the pole finds its best equilibrium without my intervention. It balances itself.

And I walk on, trusting the peculiar combination I have become of whimsical and practical, woo-woo and real, a rueful smile stealing unbidden over my face.

It will work. Or not. Either way, I will keep going on.



(1) Bone healing is what I’m most interested in: “Magnetic fіеldѕ pass through the body—even the bоnеѕ—аѕ іf the bоdу wasn’t even there. PEMFѕ work tо rераіr bоnеѕ, whether they аrе dаmаgеd by surgery, injury, оr dіѕеаѕе, and hаvе been found tо іmрrоvе bone regeneration [to repair degeneration] such аѕ оссurѕ with оѕtеороrоѕіѕ and osteopenia, among other bоnе destroying conditions.” (https://www.swinkchiropractic.com/pemf/)