To the Music of So Ham Awake us | Pine Cone

FOLI (there is no movement without rhythm) original version by Thomas Roebers and Floris Leeuwenberg

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Three quarters of the way through a chant these words caught my attention after a while. Actually it was a good long while that I chanted Jota Se Jota 45 minutes every morning before my 45 min meditation. After a year or so, I had this experience:

The Experience

I saw a vision. I saw a man sitting quietly. This figure was contemplative and looking toward me and off to one side. As his head turned about 30 degrees, color and paint shot out of his eyes onto a blank environment in the new direction of his contemplation. These colors magically formed objects and a scene that appeared in front of him. It was his world on the outside generated by a part of him inside. Simultaneously, a cascade of stardust sprinkled around and in me the “Meditator". I felt the joy and harmony that angels must feel. I cried for a couple of hours and for days I felt exalted, bathing in the stardust of the Truth I was granted:

Two years later I wrote this poem to express my insight that you are me and I am you, and to capture a deeper meaning, that had come later at the second year of chanting every day:

My Eyes Paint a Picture of Me

My eyes paint my world in the colors of my heart;
My dreams and my visions have become a work of art;
All that is inside me turns to every thing I see.
I am you; you are me;
Let me see.

My fears and my judgments become children spouse and friend;
All I think is real is merely what's inside of me;
Everything's a lesson, Freedom in humility;
I am you; you are me;
Let me see;

Life's a house of mirrors the creator paints through me;
When I accept all others I accept that part in me;
The beauty of my spirit is who I want to be.
I am you; you are me;
Let me see.
I am you; you are me;
Let me see.

So at the first year, I was beginning to accept that everyone I notice is really a picture of me, you see. This moment and many like this after this insight, I developed a deeper gratitude for Spirit’s helpers to show me me, and a new faith that Holy Spirit really does love me all the time as Light sends all the players of my forgotten inside movies. By the second year, I dared to realize that I am Spirit, not just you and me as mirrors, but truly you and me as Spirit. Six months later I sobbed in Joy as I realized that I am the music as I felt my home in the vibration inside my chanting body.

So, 1, 2, 3; I am you, I am Spirit, and I am the music. Twelve years later I seriously stumbled onto this forgiveness work and I have to admit , it makes me laugh. I can let go of all these lessons as they become picnic spots in my memory, and just keep forgiving and forgiving and forgiving to become loving and forgiving like all the good music says. I am the music, and I have been wondering what that poetic rhythm is in my chest that pours out all this prose so poetry appears even in my most serious writing. Someone told me this year that I have received the loving touch of the divine and someone else told me that inside poetic rhythm can be my D N A (Divine Natural Awareness). Anyway, I am tickly giggly bubbly excited to just keep chirping like a blue bird of happiness, and deeply grateful for all these blessings.

So Ham; Ham Sa

High Vibration Rhythm

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These words, by themselves, have power. They are Sanskrit words that evolve living meaning, and to start with, mean simply, the out breath and the in breath. The Universe, it is said, continually makes this sound, so it really helps to let these words sound in your mind as you breathe out and in and harmonize with the Universe. One meaning I derived from chanting around these words is that the outside and the inside are always mirroring for me. Perhaps ultimately, they can mean Thou Art That That Thou Art, and to see God in each other. (When I see God in someone else, I am accepting God in myself).

When we breath very slowly and hesitate between the in breath and the out breath(Ham Sa) or hesitate between the out breath and the in breath(So Ham), we begin to spend more and more time at the moment of “Twilight” magic, as we enter the Pineal Portal to all other dimensions. Practicing letting go and doing advanced forgiveness prayers helps get rid of the fear-wriggles so we can sit in stillness, until the cows come home. Since we are continually co-creating whatever contaminations of ego remain hidden within us, until we merely begin honestly surrendering to our unclear motives, we, not only get what we need, but we also need whatever we get. “Judge not lest you be judged” speaks to the same powerful process of creativity. I use a tool, that came to me at the University of Space during meditation; I named So Ham. There are 3 steps and then a possible realization inquiry.

STEP # 1: Speak or write with emotion something about another person that really pisses you off. The more you get into it the better. What really gripes you about them? What grabs you and makes you tighten up in the chest? They will never hear you. It is harmless to express. And it will not damage the relationship; it may help heal it. At the very least it will heal you and will increase your Faith and give you Peace. After you have ranted for a time, focus on the essence of the meaning of your thoughts and reduce it down to a simple phrase. Edit it until it feels right and then repeat it a couple times.

STEP# 2: Become contemplative and answer this question. What does this other person need? What do they need to do to correct their problem? There is a bit of calculus between step 1 and step 2, so do not get lost comparing yourself to the things you said in step 1. We always see what someone else needs and the answer to question 2 is the key here, not the projections of step 1. Once you have the essence statement of what the other person needs, repeat it like a new mantra quietly to yourself.

STEP # 3: Say the essence statement from step 2 (they need..., they need to…), only try owning it in the 1st person singular (I need..., I need to...); close your eyes and breathe a couple So Ham breaths, and inquire humbly and honestly if this is a possible soul statement in any aspect of your own life. I like to think that there is freedom in humility, and that as I practice and practice this process, I may get humble enough to see, even God in ME as ME. You know, not God is with me, but I am One with God. Under all behaviors, at the soul level, we are not as different as we might think. Do not be serious and have fun, and when you get to trying on yourself, what you know the other person needs, pretend you are shopping and merely trying on a new jacket, and it is your choice not to buy it. Stay empowered; this is a tool, and you have the last word.

All Spiritual traditions advise that when we get inspiration to walk across the room to tell another just what we think they may need, to stop; turn right around; and go back and sit down to contemplate how exactly what you were going to say to another fits your new invented needs to a human “T”. When we pray for another to have a good, happy, and prosperous life, we let go; when we also ask Holy Spirit to forgive another, we are letting go of Duality; and when our behavior changes to not go around projecting our crap out onto others, we embrace a new mind of Delight and join our mirrors in ONENESS, more as our loving Saviors. Detaching increases our awareness of compassion, letting go increases our awareness of a benevolent Universe; Forgiveness increases our magnanimity and really is the Sovereign Spirit ONENESS idea less personified within Spirit.

To the Music of So Ham Awake Us

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